Get used to it!
I wake up in the middle of the night, groggy and foggy, and I think that Rick is sleeping on his side of our bed. It’s such a strange feeling because for a second I have to think is he there or am I alone and I realize that it is just the pillows. There are so many changes to get used to. I think my friends might have been right in saying that I need him more than he needs me. Our lives weren’t supposed to turn out like this! This is messed up!
I feel bi-polar because I was happy to see him last night and we were listening to his songs and I was dancing like in the old days and lip syncing the words and flashing hand signals like…generate some C (make a c with your hand) O (make an O with your hand) Two (put up two fingers) from King of the Wild Frontier. I was belting out I was born on the wrong end of the Mississippi River. The other residents thought that I was crazy but I’m trying to bring some life and joy I guess to myself and to Rick. I’m making memories where I can.
It just sucks…
…feeling your pain.
Sending love & support, dear lady.
Gregg “Yo” Kubera
Former Flaming Pachuco
My heart aches for you, I can’t even pretend to know what you are going through, you have done a great job taking care of him, hang tough..it’s all you can do..just keep doing what you do for him..Bless You