It's Not a Rumour

a rock and roll journey through life and Alzheimer's

Get used to it!

March 14, 2020

miss you


I wake up in the middle of the night, groggy and foggy, and I think that Rick is sleeping on his side of our bed. It’s such a strange feeling because for a second I have to think is he there or am I alone and I realize that it is just the pillows. There are so many changes to get used to. I think my friends might have been right in saying that I need him more than he needs me. Our lives weren’t supposed to turn out like this! This is messed up!

I feel bi-polar because I was happy to see him last night and we were listening to his songs and I was dancing like in the old days and lip syncing the words and flashing hand signals like…generate some C (make a c with your hand) O (make an O with your hand) Two (put up two fingers) from King of the Wild Frontier. I was belting out I was born on the wrong end of the Mississippi River. The other residents thought that I was crazy but I’m trying to bring some life and joy I guess to myself and to Rick. I’m making memories where I can.

It just sucks…

miss you alotsnoopy miss you


  1. …feeling your pain.
    Sending love & support, dear lady.
    Gregg “Yo” Kubera
    Former Flaming Pachuco

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  2. My heart aches for you, I can’t even pretend to know what you are going through, you have done a great job taking care of him, hang’s all you can do..just keep doing what you do for him..Bless You

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